Finding eternity

July 8, 2008 - 8:55pm

I had to go buy the cd tonight. This music is really touching and deep. I found eternity once and lost it. Now as I enter the second phase of my life as it is, I plan on not missing a thing. I'm 39 years old, single mom of three wonderful children. My kids are growing up and one is a senior and the twins are 11. They dont want to be around mom now adays. So, on hearing these songs I just did a reflection of my life. I've done everything for my kids for 17 years. Now I realize I lost myself in them. So on my 39th birthday I decided to go for it and do what I havent done in 11 years and that was put myself out there to date again, make adult friends, and try to find that one person that can bring me that eternity I want. Human form that is.... I found God 12 years ago while walking down our dirt road, with tears in my eyesI fell on my knees into the gravel and screamed to the heavens; "Lord why this pain in my soul?" Why was I alone, a failed marriage, the birth of twins, the death of my mom and grandfather all in one year. Why was I the one to be tortured so? Did I not go to church like I should have? Did I not try to make my marriage work; or did I party too much in my college days.? Eternity sounded really good then, life was so full of pain, fear and hopelessness. That day with my knees bleeding from rocks cutting into them and tears mixed with dust on my cheeks, I found out what God was to me and what I was to him. I dedicated my self to raising the gifts he gave me and now I feel free to continue on the journey of ME and what is around the bend. This music is my inspiration; I will find heaven ... in his eyes; arms; heart and soul here on earth. So God send him to me.